A foot job

Since my last blog I've shifted my ass and been to the gym. How I miss my wedding day 6 pack. Now my stomach resembles a road map with all the stretch marks wiggling all over the place. I half expect to strip off and hear "turn left in 200 yards". Going to the gym is a huge milestone for me. Before I had a baby I loved working out but this love was lost when I had a breakdown in the gym carpark when dolly was about 3 month (more on this in my future blogs). It made it difficult for me to even think about going, and when I finally did battle my demons and go, it was great until i sat down in the dance studio to catch my breath, and all i could think about was hanging myself in their. This may seem a little intense but this is reality this is depression. Depression doesn't want me to go and do things i enjoy. It wants me to be scared, but I've pushed on and I'm back at the gym AGAIN. But now I'm fine when i go i do a dance class and just let loose. I literally think i look like Beyoncé but in reality i think I'm more ugly betty minus the glasses. But who cares what i look like i feel good I'm dancing away depression, i haven't let it beat me, some days i do but in the end I'm winning. I've learnt to just go with it if one day i wake up and feel the need to be a little low and wear my pjs and answer the door to the postman minus my bra that's ok. I used to be scared if i gave into a low mood it would last forever but it doesn't tomorrows a new day. Who knows you may feel like wearing pants! Just go with it enjoy the ups and live the downs.
Before i get onto my second part of the blog may i add i stood in baby shit today! If you learn anything from my blog don't put shitty clothes on the floor. #vommum
Anyway i said i would talk about my pregnancy! The good the bad and the piles. Well I'm sorry to disappoint i aint talking about my piles, i had to say something to get you to carry on reading.
So Dolly was conceived on my wedding night. We agreed to start trying on our wedding night i had no clue it would be that quick. I honestly thought it would take a few months. We went on honeymoon, was home a few days cosy on the sofa watching a film called what to expect when your expecting. If you've not seen it its a chick flick about pregnant women. In the film the ladies had all the first sign side effects, like the larger boobs that absolutely kill!!! the constipation ohhh how i took pooping for granted, and my body temperature wow i was on fire, you think I'm joking I'm sure smoke was coming out my head like a chimney! So i did a test (ok i did like 6 what women doesn't) and wam bam i was up the duff. Keeping it a secret was so hard especially when i had to un button my skirt when it got to tight and it fell to my feet whilst i had my hands full so i had to stand with my bum out. Try explaining that to the neighbours.
So a few month into marriage and i constantly smell of BO and when i take off my kinky I'm a new wife underwear it looks like I'm still wearing it as it dug in that much. But we was exited, even more so when we found out it was a girl. I loved the feeling of having my little girl with me where ever i went, i took her to see santa, maria carey i even dressed her as the golden snitch for a fancy dress party. (Isit just me or do i sound like a 5yearold)
At 34 weeks we discovered she was footling breech. If you don't no what this is this is when the baby is breech but has leg(s) bangling down into the pelvis. I was advised to get the baby to turn or at least remove her foot from what felt like was about to pop out my foof. I had to prop a non erect ironing board up against the sofa with pillows surrounding me and lay on it upside down. This is no joke!! and we had results not only did we laugh uncontrolably but dollys leg  moved. My foof was foot free. Unfortunattly she was still breech and i had 2 options i could book a C-section or have an ECV. This is a procedure where the baby is turned by hand. My next blog i will tell you all about my decision. Hope you enjoyed reading this if so please leave a comment id love to know what you think I'm all new to this and feedback would be brill!