Tuppy terror

So i'm 29. The only way is down now. Roll on death.
Buy hey birthdays are not that bad really. Who doesn't love gifts such us 12 cream eggs, vicks vapour rub and floor wipes all to celebrate living for an extra year. Yes I have random presents but I'm a random girl, who loves to wipe the floor stinking of vick!
My day was lovely shaun had left me all the stuff out to have pancakes for breakfast. But I wanted to have them with lottie so had to wait till 10.30 to have them, and I had to wake her up at that. I was famished. Lottie really enjoyed them and loved the blueberrys I gave her with them. To the point her poo is blue today and has stained her bum! I keep calling her blueberry blue bum. Where ever you are right now please just try and say blueberry blue bum. It impossible I keep saying blueberry bru brum!
Once we was full up and id opened all my funny and random gifts we got ready and went to play group. Where lottie just sat and ate all the free food, and the not so consumables.
I got home and had a meal cooked for me. A vegan meal as I'm semi vegan/vegetarian. And for those of you that say that's not even a thing, you cant even do that. Well I can do what I want and I'm semi vegan so ner.
Unfortunately the fun stopped here. And obvs we had some drama. In regards to my return to work from maternity leave. I'm not going to rant about it just yet as its being dealt with. But I will keep you posted. And if anyone wants to give me a job hit me up. Just never use the line "we work to benefit the company rather than the individual" or I will up and leave lol.  Last night I was upset about the situation today I'm angry.
Last night I had the worst nightmare. About depression re entering my body. And being scared of it. I do feel the stress with work has caused this, and today I have been up and down. But pony assured me I'm not upset because I'm ill and it doesn't mean I'm falling. What I'm feeling is normal. Anyone would be upset if they was in this unfair situation. So hopefully tonight is a better night and I'm not gripped with terror in a dream I cant wake up from.
This morning I had an appointment about my contraception. I cant rely on condoms any more due to the fact they come more in handy to de lime scale the tap. Sorry but they are total passion killers. So its been decided I'm having a coil fitted. Oh they joy. Today was just a discussion about the procedure.
To check I'm not pregnant or have chlamydia or some other STI I cant spell. Which wouldn't come as a shock if I had all the above. As that's just life for me at the moment. If it can go wrong it is doing, so why not just add chlamydia and an unplanned pregnancy to the list? If this happens I'm taking this shit global. I'm calling universal studios because you couldn't make it up lol.
 I also stressed because my labour the thought off having someones head down their just freaks me out. I fear it will take me right back to the hours and hours spent laid on a hospital trolley being examined every 4 hours for around 20 something hours. Their must be a name for such a fobia if not ive come up with some, tuppy terror, fanny fobia or scary mary.
So my blog on the 31st January is going to be interesting. It could be one extreme or the other. I either lay their and I'm fine or I freak out and run out the doctors with my pants round my ankles shouting tuppy terror! I'm sure I will have some story to tell.
Thinking about it I'm going to set myself a goal. I'm going to go and have this coil. And I'm going to just be normal. I'm not going to say anything silly or do anything to draw attention to myself. Like run around the waiting area pretending I have my new steam mop. In a bid to make lottie and my sister laugh. Lets see if I can do this! Lets call it mission normal. I might even be sponsored for it! Yano when your a kid and you get paid to be quiet that kind of thing.
This afternoon me mum dad and shaun have been up to Hopewood. The unit I am being treated at.Well my picture has been put up in reception, from the day I met professor green. Super proud moment, and my skin looks amazzzze.  If you didn't read that blog https://mummyleitbe.blogspot.com/2018/11/you-get-to-meet-person-behind-screen-i.html Mum took a picture off me with the picture but I look ruff so I will try and get a better one where you cant see my double chin.
Hopefully I will get chance to blog tomorrow but its a busy day. As I have to go get my nails done and I have an appointment with the nursery. If I don't get chance have a good weekend. I'm off out to parrrrrday. Where I will try and implement mission normal.
P.S Britney is no longer a reader. All rude readers are banned the only tits n ass yours gunna be seeing round here is mine which aint pretty so be warned